By: Ladie Leblanc
Sadness filled my soul the first night I spent sleeping on
the floor in a blanket in an empty apartment. Tears wanted to jump out of my
bones but my mind wouldn’t let them.
As scenes replayed in
my head and my heart remained broken and unrepaired. At these white walls I
stared.
As I seen all the
fights and remember each night I lay awake as you slept. The memories of all
the words flying out of my mouth. All the phrases that were spate out of fear.
“Fear” the thing that I had never felt! The emotion that
caught me off guard because it was never present or near. Fearless is what I
had been then suddenly this feeling inside clouded my head.
My mind is screaming
at the person I love as my heart cried out, “please hear me through all these
words”
Love dark and dreary because I can’t love.
A love so painful
that no one can understand the language that it speaks. A love so deep that not
just anyone can seek.
My skin crawls aching
to be held by your hands. My body calls to its partner that can no longer hear
and it just remains still.
My eyes remember your
soul and how it feels to stake into someone’s being.
My eyes only saddened even more as they search for that same
sight but they cry because it’s not there and they want to avoid seeing.
Love so hard that
when hit going 100mph it is just pulled along.
A love so full of
tears you can’t see it’s face. The water that runs down my face and hits the
floor silently.
Love that was too
much to lose and it’s so sensitive but doesn’t want you to know the truth.
A love that lives for
your intimacy and sanity.
Dark and lonely a
love that only remains to show me what I am missing.
Sad and friendly a love that can’t be tamed or matched.
Unthinkable love that
only understands us!
The darkness of our
love!
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